Being in love

Hi pple! im back. hehe. has been a really hectic week for me.
updates ya!
okay. loves. my darling xiao wu came back fr China and so is jenny. and they both came back on 23rd june. hehe. and yesss. great. i love you jenny. u shall be my beloved ntu roommate. heheh. midnight jio u eat roti prata with me. oops. =X im such a gluton. haha. aye. but i miss the satay opposite tjc =( i last had it with him also =(

anyway, yah. okay cut the crap. update update!

Sunday, 22 June'08.

Went to leck's house for a supposedly pretty cool chill out session with the intention of flying a kite high up in the sky and having a picnic out in the open ulu ulu part of punggol. uh huh. the kite cldnt fly bcos there wasnt much wind and the fields were like muddy, puddy cos of the rain earlier in the afternoon. pluff. there goes our picnic. and ms koh qiling was uberly uberly late bcos she came from tuition. so in fact, only leck and i flew the kite. and my kite was stuck on the tree! leck said it's cos i was too short =.='

can see the kite! so colourful!
leck took the photos while im suppose to pose. hahah. i like the further away shot. more emo. keke.

anyway, leck's mummy is as nice as ever (: she treated us zi cha AGAIN at the kopitiam at kadaloor AGAIN. haha. so nice. but was kinda paiseh cos she has treated us for omg. i think it's the 3rd time. hahah.

omg. wondering whats up with these photos? yeah. haha. share a room with turtle wong during the overnight thingie and so leck shared a room with qi. aint know why either. turtle wong and i cldnt get to slp so we chatted till about 6am omg. i swear i almost dropped dead the next day. shall explain why later ya. (qi snapped those pics secretly! LOL)

we talked so many things about life. so many aspects. it makes me scared. it makes me scared of being so truthful and open to others when you never know when pple are putting on their facades be it infront, or behind ya. and whether or not i can still hold on to being me. i mean it's pretty logical to think about things like that, especially now.

but then, it's horrible. i think sth is wrong with my bladder. i went to pee 3 times in 3 hours. LOL! peifen actually went into the toilet with me bcos she was scared of the 'tick tock tick tock' sound of the clock =.=`

Monday, 23 June'08.

okay doky. so tiring... yawns. its 1249am now and im still blogging. okay yeah. so the next day was shopping with them plus xiangting for their online store and yeap. i bought a junkie/vintage top. hoo. so pretty!
anyway, after that was intensive training with qi. haha. we went to run 2.4km and followed by 20 lapses of swimming. cooL. i love love love love love swimming! its like my favourite sport!
went to eat pork porridge after that. yums. porridge is good for health. hahahha. crap.

Tuesday, 24 June'08.

went vivo. the chicken ripper hotdog not bad. bought so much stuff that im like penniless soon. shall post the pics up when i take them ya. hah. i bought 1 cardigan from mango, 1 half knitted jacket from m)phosis, 3 tops, 3 shorts from nichii, 1 pair of slippers from charles and keith and 1 belt. DIE.
end of story.

Wednesday, 25 June'08.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, LINGTING!!! (:

Supposedly to be on the 24th June but she wasnt free! hmm. so did a belated celebration for her. haha. okay brought her over to nydc at wheelock. cos it's like cheesecakes, mudpies and ...it's a puppies inspired restaurant! =)

she ordered this..
yum yum.. it's called 'tears in heaven'
got alot of bacons on it. bacon is nice.
i like.

i had this! it's called 'pigs can fly' haha! cool name huh. it's really yummy. just that it has alot of capsicums (okay dunno how to spell) but i love tomato sauce. it's so richhh and yums..

'Grandma goes nuts' is the most delicious mudpie in nydc i suppose. i dont really like the rest except this 1. hahah. (shall update this part 2mr, so tired alr)

Thursday, 27 june'08.

today's dinner at expo. my working hour's like 10am to 10pm. have to STAND again. and my dinner's like hahahha. from the pic. cool. gd night. im too slpy for more details.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

blue rhapsody. 11:18:00 AM

In this hidden concoction of life lies God's existence.
bless him, may i ask.
away from his dark side of life.
showering him with God's greatest gift of all;
to love..
i know he's not okay
let him receive your love and walk out
from his pain..
let him sense his angel's presence.
let him return to your wings of
love..

just like the way i love ...
the way i want him to be happy..
everyone needs a hug some time in their lives.
me too. you too..

Saturday, June 21, 2008

9:13:00 PM

i cant wait to stay in ntu hostel.
mom, can u gimme a break?

take me away my angel <3 2:58:00 PM

you didnt want me to worry.
i trust you.
i believe.
(:

but dont do it again can?
be yourself.
loves.
jiayou.

Friday, June 20, 2008

2:14:00 PM

im so sian and feeling so incredulously bored at home. supposed to meet elaine later cos she's taking over me at parkway roadshow as per big boss mr eric ng. hahaha. omg. im sorry elaine, you gotta clear "tuah" for me on sunday. oops =X (means to dismantle the arrangements, pack the softwares, stock-taking/ lal. tough)

anyway, eric called me ydae morning and i was still feeling sleepy when he asked me to work next fri, sat and sun. oh mama. =( money slaver. sucks =( hais. yeah so calculated my travelling time. im heading out at 3pm maybe and im not going to be very punctual. haha! damn sian

and as im blogging now. my SISTER. yes. she's singing some unknown old chinese singer song in my room and studying in my room instead of the study room =.=` major distraction. ahhh. im blogging nonsense today. hahaa. extreme boredom.

dont feel like going out but have to head out to get my music keyboard cds =( major sian. and i havent set up my keyboard yet becos my table is in such a messy state and pluff. i dont feel like moving. havent gotten ready my letter of appeal to transfer subjects too. i so..dunno what to write. help help help me! okay. he told me to type and send via mail. i think thats more sincere too. but my chances are so slim =( and i havent written in to get my $4800+ yet. must do it before july. about a week more to do so.

okay.

this is a very random entry basically. so yeah. eugene and i bought xiao wu's presents ydae! whee! i got her sth from levis. im major broke now. but nevermind, cos it's very nice! hahah. and eugene's present didnt come easy too. we combed the whole orchard laaaa. slaps slaps. and i dragged ee to centrepoint with me to buy a top from that "W.." something shop. couldnt find the shop! so saddd =(( i need more tshirts and shorts for school. cos 3/4 of my closet is like spag, halter kind. how to wear to school?! =(

cant wait for school to start. i cant wait cant wait. heard from hazel that ntu students always frequent that west coast roti prata shop during wee hours of the night for supper. haha! so cool. bet im going to pull my hostel mates to eat prata with me next time! qi and turtle wong or him also can! provided that he's ready to see me lar. shit lar. i miss him leh =( slap myself. now its not the time. bahhhh =((( how many times must i remind myself he needs more time? *bang wall*

aye aye. but i'll study and play real hard when sch starts. dont be like Teejay lidat. major upset laa. hais. have to head out soon. shall blog again. byebye. shall buy bubble tea for elaine also. byebye.

p.s ntu got sell bubbletea?

i only know got 2 supermarkets. 1 big supermart and 1 mini mart.

i want leh =X

honey milk tea pls ((:

Thursday, June 19, 2008

say say say u love me! 10:54:00 PM

I KNOW U MISS ME!

stupid pig. refuse to admit ):

currently listening to:

Artist: David Cook lyrics

Title: Always Be My Baby

(by Mariah Carey)

Do do doop

Do do doop do doop da dum

Do do doop dum

Do do doop do doop da dum

Do do doop

Do do doop do doop da dum

Do do doop dum

Do do doop do doop da dum

We were as one babe

For a moment in time

And it seemed everlasting

That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free

So I'm letting you fly'

Cause I know in my heart babe

Our love will never die, no

You'll always be a part of me

I'm a part of you indefinitely

Boy don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on and on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

Do do doop

Do do doop do doop da dum

Do do doop dum

Do do doop do doop da dum

I ain't gonna cry no

And I won't beg you to stay

If you're determined to leave boy

I will not stand in your way

But inevitably you'll be back again

'Cause you know in your heart babe

Our love will never end, no

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Boy don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on and on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling,'cause you'll always be my baby

(I know that you'll be back boy)

When your days and your nights get a little bit colder,

oh(I know that)You'll be right back, baby

Well, baby believe me it's only a matter of time, time

You'll always be a part of me

And I'm part of you indefinitely

Boy don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on and on(And we will linger on and on)

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me(Ooh baby)

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

You'll always be apart of me

And I'm part of you indefinitely

Boy don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby(No, no)

(You and I will always be)

And we'll linger on and on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong(You and I)

No way you're never gonna shake me(You and I)

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby(You and I will always be)

do doop

Do do doop do doop da dum

(No way your never gonna shake me)

Do do doop dum

(No way your never gonna shake me)

Do do doop do doop da dum

(You and I will always be)Do do doop

Do do doop do doop da dum

Do do doop dum(No matter what you do baby)

Do do doop do doop da dum

i miss you..i love you..

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

8:39:00 PM

i dont want them to perish.
8 lives.
yet, some people are just heartless.

you've never let me know, you've never showed. 1:37:00 PM

"dont go away, you're the only light i see in this darkness"
credits: thomas for the photo and the pic (:

i am not okayy.

let me ruminate.

ive been telling everyone that im fine. yupp. dont worry about me. but im not. oh my god. im such a lousy liar. i dont seem to be able to concentrate on anything that im doing. im even losing interest in completing a music piece. neither does reading a book helps much. i'll read, and probably lose focus, and end up stoning instead. shopping or exercising doesnt helps either! kill me somebody.

eugene said, "I'll do the normal bit of things i usually do and let life return to normal." gawd. i swear im doing pretty much the same but it doesnt works on me. like LOL. sucks. and sometimes, i do admire darren. yup, frivolous as he may seem to be, he's a warm-hearted, devoted creature, (haha. yeah creature) after knowing that he's still waiting for someone after so longgg. wow. darren, you go boy!

and ive been playing mariah carey's BYEBYE. for like 4206929 times.

This is for my peoples

who just lost somebody

Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady

put your hand way up high

We will never say bye (no, no, no)

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins

This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers

Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times

I didn't get it but you kept me in line

I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes

It's something more than saying "I miss you"

But when we talked too

All them grown folk things

Separation brings

You never let me know it

You never let it show because

You loved me and obviously

There's so much more left to say

If you were with me today

face to face

[Chorus:]

I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on like

"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"

"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"

As time goes by

And soon as you reach a better place

Still I'll give the whole world to see your face

And I'm right here next to you

It feels like you gone too soon

The hardest thing to do is say bye bye(Bye Bye [3x])

Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done

And you never got to see me back at number one

I wish that you were here to celebrate together

I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night

With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight

I thought you were so strong

That you can make it through whatever

It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

pluff.

Have you ever looked at someone through their pictures into their eyes and felt the distance getting longer and longer each time you dropped a glance? To know that the distance in reality can never supersede the one in the heart despite the proximity, and feeling somewhat helpless about it. Have you ever tried plucking up that courage that seemed to entrench itself at the bottom of the heart and when you finally did so, you looked back and saw how things might have been misinterpreted.Sometimes you wish that courage could do more than a mere suggestion. Or that recipient could see the whole picture.

for that, i can only stay, in silent reverie now. silently, but still, listening to what i want. Folks out there, i hope you guys perservere and listen to yourself too. since it is fated that god wants us to go through this as atypical kind of ordeal; survive it and we'll be better than before.

enough said. im moody today.

Monday, June 16, 2008

cylon 4:30:00 PM

my awful job has finally come to an end.

i wanna thank these people for coming down

and cheering me up at parkway parade.

wed: no1 came ): (yup. ate alone)

thurs: si xuan

friday: eugene

sat: di hui, sebas, darren ( where's lau xin an??!! )

sun: eugene again

haha.

must be thinking why is dis job so pathetic huh.

okay.

im a cylon promoter which is indirectly under best denki.

so basically, a promoter at the best denki roadshow.

last week was at compasspoint.. that totally sucks.

nvm that i was alone for the job, at least qi, turtle and darling xiao wu came

and visit me.

sad part was that i got cut 2x on my arm.

it's like "zeephh" while stocking up pc softwares and bruises on my knees ):

no1 was there to help me. like crap.

so helpless.

things were slightly better at parkway bt still sucky.

cos i cldnt go for any breaks except the dinner break. and its so crappy.

there were no chairs, no nth. my legs are so suan and so muscular now, due to prolonged

hrs of standing. from 12-930pm -.-`

if there was totally no1 visiting me,

it meant that i have to eat alone for the entire week.

=.=`

im so thankful to eugene especially.

he's like uberly uberly uberly sweet to the max.

he came down twice lor.

and ydae was father's day.

i was so sian diao when boss didnt allow me to go back at 630pm when

i was down for my family dinner so it's gonna be so crappy

if i cldnt go out with em to celebrate father's day and wads worse. i eat ALONE.

hah.

people that know me so well.

oh so well.

knew that the top 3 things that i hate the most is:

1) idiots tt lie to me (i swear, unless a valid reason is given, i'll

ignore them forever..so dun ever be a liar infront of me ya. i dont give way)

2) i hate being lonely. eat alone, shop alone, go library alone. (just nice dis job have to

be so damn alone)

3)pple who pang seh me, literally. when evything is fixed. i just dislike it. totally.

ya back to the fact that eugene's so nice.

omg.

i swear i so much wanted someone to come and support me.

he didnt..

its always when im down and out and he wont be

there kinda thing... upsets me. hell lot these days.

but then again, i know he needs time alone.

but the dumb me still went to ask him out.

i deserve it.

im...so..silly. yet, i cldnt help it.

hah. silly me.

nevermind, give him time.

i have confidence in him.

i told eugene. then he came.

and he's so sweet to darling xiao wu.

he waits for her to come online evydae cos she's overseas

over at her dad's op in china.

and he has a week and a half to himself cos he just POP.

he literally waits and waits..he doesnt knows when she'll be around

and he'll just wait.

tts like..gulp. i never had someone being so nice to me before.

even though it's like so silly.

but littlest things, they tell.

they speak alot of a person, isnt it?

the slightest things in life that are often done just tell alot of tt person.

im really happy that they have found each other.

seriously.

LOL. shagged look.
forced a smile on dis pic. my colleagues wanted
to take a photo of me.
=.=`

and they drew me on a balloon.
=.=`

Saturday, June 14, 2008

11:08:00 PM

today is 14th june'08.

12:01:00 AM

McFly- All About You
It's all about you (it's all about you)
It's all about you baby
It's all about you (it's all about you)
It's all about you

Verse 1:Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smile, it's all about you
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too
Said you'd make my life worthwhile, it's all about you

Chorus:And I would answer all of your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles, it's all about you, yeah!
(Guitar solo)

Chorus 2:And I would answer all of your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes you make my life worthwhile
So I told you with a smile
It's all about you
It's all about you (it's all about you)
It's all about you baby(repeat until end)

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

7:04:00 PM

i am so upset today.
like damn upset.

Monday, June 9, 2008

vania! 8:18:00 PM

i bought this from ms leck and poh xt's LJ.
okay. i like wearing this kinda stuff.
hahah.
pls support folks!
http://mascaradafesta.livejournal.com/

lecky. can u pls pls pls? i want ashley babe.
restock restock :D
whee. im gg out with ms agnes lim 2MR.
cant wait.
(:
i need a new pair of canvas shoes badly.
should i get keds?
my legs are giving way already.
current job: stand from 1200h to 2130h
(hello? i need a portable chair)
bah ):
hard earned money.
will be at best denki rdshow fr wed-sun at parkway.
support me pple?
i know eugene's coming on wed.
join me for dinner since i'll eat alone for this job.
he's gonna feed kyky since lingting is overseas
and just nice he POP.
hahah.
anyone else?
:D

credits to mascaradafesta

omg picnic! omg fly kite! 12:13:00 AM

OMG. im so excited. i am gg to have a picnic and fly kite plus stayover session
on 21-22 june at punggol! omg. omg. omg. its either we are getting kites or making em.
hahahah.
but im sure we will be preparing food.
omg so cool!
hope i dun mess up the whole kitchen.
we're gg to play fire sparklers and take lame pics too!
gonna blog them up so stay tuned!
hahaha!
today is a bad day.
cos my granny is at ttsh.
im visiting her 2mr.
yet, omg. meanwhile, im so excited! whee!!
dont look for me during these days! im not around! yay!
:D

Sunday, June 8, 2008

sighs. 1:02:00 PM

It was proven scientifically that a smile can gain you 10 more years of life. Is it true? I aint sure. Just got myself hitched up with a new job, as a sales promoter. I should be happy isnt it? Unfortunately, not quite. I always tell myself that i can stay happy as long as I'm being myself. I dont want to be like the rest. People just stick to those whom they think are popular, as what the society conforms. And they change accordingly just to fit into their world- the popular ones.

I'm not like them, and more often than never, people tell you this, tell you that just to force you to become like them. Im so tired of it. Why cant life be simpler? Or is it because I havent really met friends that have the same mindset as I do? Many are just hi-bye kind of friends, but friends that really go through thick and thin with you are RARE. as you mingle with the rest, you just know it, "No, I dont belong here." i feel fake forcing a smile, doing things like camwhoring blabla..with them. it just isnt me. im really simple. okay maybe you can say that im boring, but i dont care.

To me, spending quality time, can just be having a cup of coffee, (doesnt have to be at starbucks or coffeebean, kopitiam also can), talking about things be it big or small; just like a heart-to-heart talk, going marina bay to fly kite and watch it fly higher and higher, or just having my beau sitting beside me, we dont have to communicate, i'll just be glad and contented that he is by my side..thats enough. and we enjoy each other's presence. we dont have to follow the trend and do what others are doing, its just between us two. And yet, simple things like this dont come easy. Trust me, Im really simple. I dont need gorgeous clothes, when i go out with pple that im comfortable with, i can just go out with my mugger clothes and fbt.

I do doubt myself, trying to emphasize on individuality and yet, many a times, I've been carrying so much about what others say. Just what the hell is wrong with me? I want to be myself yet i cant be true to myself. Forcing myself to blend in, yet, I just dont belong. so sick of it..

im looking forward to uni life, boy, i need a change. i need to settle down. i dont like it when i feel so aimless and helpless.
talking about my relationship, i know you guys are concerned about me. but no worries folks, i have made my decision. i just hope that you guys can respect me and say no more. i am who i am. i know how i feel. i dont need outsiders to comment, it is not going to count. what i need is faith on both parties, trust and fate. baby, i know we can do it even though its not now. wow, this is such a long entry which is supposedly to be up, eons ago.
man, feel like visiting daiso, the amazing supermart, its a happy place! i cant wait to go there with someone though. its really homely (: you've got to be there to experience it!

i love you people!!

and.. i love you.

Friday, June 6, 2008

1:38:00 AM

decided not to lock it afterall.
things will turn out well.
they will.
have faith.
yes yes yes!
ahhhh.
we know.

Monday, June 2, 2008

10:08:00 PM

Singer

im a beautiful mystery and so are you.

jiahui
020589
Temasek Junior College
Tanjong Katong Sec

myprerogative

we both know.
loveintransition, till then.
i<3you

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