Sunday, June 8, 2008
sighs. 1:02:00 PM

It was proven scientifically that a smile can gain you 10 more years of life. Is it true? I aint sure. Just got myself hitched up with a new job, as a sales promoter. I should be happy isnt it? Unfortunately, not quite. I always tell myself that i can stay happy as long as I'm being myself. I dont want to be like the rest. People just stick to those whom they think are popular, as what the society conforms. And they change accordingly just to fit into their world- the popular ones.

I'm not like them, and more often than never, people tell you this, tell you that just to force you to become like them. Im so tired of it. Why cant life be simpler? Or is it because I havent really met friends that have the same mindset as I do? Many are just hi-bye kind of friends, but friends that really go through thick and thin with you are RARE. as you mingle with the rest, you just know it, "No, I dont belong here." i feel fake forcing a smile, doing things like camwhoring blabla..with them. it just isnt me. im really simple. okay maybe you can say that im boring, but i dont care.

To me, spending quality time, can just be having a cup of coffee, (doesnt have to be at starbucks or coffeebean, kopitiam also can), talking about things be it big or small; just like a heart-to-heart talk, going marina bay to fly kite and watch it fly higher and higher, or just having my beau sitting beside me, we dont have to communicate, i'll just be glad and contented that he is by my side..thats enough. and we enjoy each other's presence. we dont have to follow the trend and do what others are doing, its just between us two. And yet, simple things like this dont come easy. Trust me, Im really simple. I dont need gorgeous clothes, when i go out with pple that im comfortable with, i can just go out with my mugger clothes and fbt.

I do doubt myself, trying to emphasize on individuality and yet, many a times, I've been carrying so much about what others say. Just what the hell is wrong with me? I want to be myself yet i cant be true to myself. Forcing myself to blend in, yet, I just dont belong. so sick of it..

im looking forward to uni life, boy, i need a change. i need to settle down. i dont like it when i feel so aimless and helpless.
talking about my relationship, i know you guys are concerned about me. but no worries folks, i have made my decision. i just hope that you guys can respect me and say no more. i am who i am. i know how i feel. i dont need outsiders to comment, it is not going to count. what i need is faith on both parties, trust and fate. baby, i know we can do it even though its not now. wow, this is such a long entry which is supposedly to be up, eons ago.
man, feel like visiting daiso, the amazing supermart, its a happy place! i cant wait to go there with someone though. its really homely (: you've got to be there to experience it!







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