chapter zero and beyond

2008-11-07T01:03:00.001+08:00

have moved!
still deciding if i should put up my new url.
HAHAHA.
till then. byebye.

i hear your voice

2008-09-27T01:49:00.011+08:00

hello allllll! ohmygod. my blog is dead as it is already. life's getting pretty much repetitive and everything. researches, projects and tests. uh huh, i've got a phonology test coming up, a pbl presentation and so on. and hahaha. havent done much about it actually. it's so different compared to jc life. i mean, hmmm u sometimes do feel you dont quite belong anywhere. heh. sucky can ): anyway, photos that are so damn overdue :D

Athena- FOC'08

Ice Skating

Jash Out @ Zouk!

Timbre @ Clarke Quay!

Jeanette's Bday

D&D/Retro @ Holiday Inn Atrium

so many photos! okay i wanted to type more. but uploading these pics took me 2 hrs omg. slping soon. shall edit this if i have time. recess week is ending! sch again =.=` hahahhahahaha but i have no lessons on tues, wed and thurs next week! yay!! cos tues and thurs e-learning and wed is a p.h! okay love myself. good night pple! ((:

Love love athena!

2008-08-10T00:10:00.002+08:00

OKAY. im super duper busy lately. and im coughing like a lunatic now. will update soon okay pple? see sua sua see sua sua see sua sua woo hoo. i love athena!

2008-07-27T13:16:00.000+08:00

off for camp!
dont miss me. haha.

i see you see all the vices coming back.

2008-07-16T10:40:00.005+08:00

Teejay...
my alma mater.

hey lovelies, who will ever forget this scene? days out at the field, days of vigorous training regimes, assembly days...
a walk to the audi block to attend screwed up econs lessons, gp and assembly?

how about this scene behind the g.o?

awards 2007...

hey anyone my classmate?

doesnt this picture...reminds you of this?

outside chem lab. we were boreddd.

and doesnt this picture, reminds you of... (taken a yr ago)

that's still me! a year later.
xiao wu!uh huh. thats new. we didnt have this. oh the grand piano at the stage is already so off tune. i miss. miss the guy that played the song the way you look at me by christian bautisa. those were the days..

dan fan ji ji + free tau huay + mangostraw!
told you the uncle and the auntie of the fruitjuice stall misses me! when we went back that day, they were actually closed for the day. i couldnt get to drink the waterstraw but the uncle did manage to make mangostraw for me and the auntie, gave us free tau huay! love love (:
miss those good old days where me, leck, turtle, sixuan, darren, di hui, sebas and lau xin an were slacking around the first lesson of every monday in the canteen bcos lessons were for the bio people and we always ordered all these!! remember guys? yeah, occassionally you will see qiling there (obvious) since ponning was the 'in' thing. haha. eh guys, dont pon lessons in ntu ok. *grins*

wall art, wall graffiti contributions '01, '02 (:

couldnt take my eyes off this when i saw it lazing around the concrete side. 14th july is such a sentimental day for me. went ecp later on (aint wanna blog the pics up), cycled.. and it started to rain when we cycled for less than 5 minutes. it was god's wish that i had to seek shelter at 30C. sometimes, i wish there isnt so much coincidence in my life, that will take me out of those fond shit in me and damn, it had to be on that day...things took another turn yesterday. the proximity has been superceded once again. apprehensive is the word, would you understand it boy?

Unwanted.

2008-07-15T18:28:00.001+08:00

my appeal didnt get through.

Hi Jiahui

I refer to your email dated 2 Jul 08.
2.You may wish to remain in your current programme first. Registration for the BA/BSc (Edun) will commence soon and there will be briefing by NIE. If you still want to change, you could put forth your request to NIE. NIE in return will channel the requests to MOE for our consideration if NIE also supports your request for change.
3. All the best in your studies.

):
bad news.

Sing me to sleep. i want my lala land.

2008-07-14T00:43:00.004+08:00

i shall officially declare that i am nocturnal. i cannot sleep despite being so sick. my throat is like super dry that i dont feel like speaking to anyone except hogging on to my lappy the whole day. agneslim wanted to go bugis today, told her another day. my schedule's so packed recently. except weekends. haha. whats the matter folks? maybe people surrounding me are like attached and have to accompany their bfs during wkends. lol. hahaha. 3 more weeks before school reopens. i found something i wanted ydae. so happy. byebye people. im gg back to tj to collect my cert 2mr. i miss the waterstraw (watermelon strawberry) uncle. its my favourite drink loh! the uncle remembered me and called out to me when i went back the other day. he rembs i love waterstraw. absolutely. byebye lovers. im flying to school 2mr. oh yeah i need morning call.

bah bah bah. shucks slap myself. i really cant help missing you dear.

dosage.

2008-07-13T17:11:00.001+08:00

still unwell. i need some honey water. i need to regain my flexes soon.

i miss you.

the germs caught me.

2008-07-12T16:58:00.001+08:00

im feeling so weak today. was having the symptoms yet i ignored it. its getting worser and im feverish today. curse myself for that negligence of mine. didnt catch a wink last night. i was busy with something the whole night. lol. and was dead tired by the time i finished it. and yet, couldnt sleep! was exhausted physically but not psychologically. lalala. what the hell am i typing i aint know. and gotta go and rescue ah leck from the realms of that white hair ah beng. pluff. at imm summore. my god. okay no complains. im a loyal friend :D

hais. no reply again. i guess stuff just went into the chute ya? im really sick sick sick sick sick. tired tired tired tired tired. worned out emotionally. my bad. why am i always concerned about you when you're not even bothered about making things the right way? my bad.

this is sucha rubbish entry. OUT.

school baby!

2008-07-09T13:00:00.007+08:00

Hi folks.
i've got an announcement to make!
drumroll pls........

HAHAHA.
my admission package finally arrived ydae!
and im bombarded by those deadly datelines ydae.
send cheques out, fill in particulars, cfm the dates, hostel booking, orientation dates clear schedule woa so busy!

nevertheless, im happily excited with school's starting. yeah and im topping up my sports wear with a few more fbts with turtle wong 2mr. hey jen hope u can come along too (: this entry is kinda crappy. i was blogging and hwee kiat called me 3times! LOL. hah. hweekiat is my cousin. he's supposed to be my surety for MOE sponsorship. and he kept calling to ask about the terms and conditions of a surety. lol. i need two sureties bcos the TTA is pretty strict. breaching of the contract would mean paying liquidated damages of $99 313.15 omg. as good as training a pilot =.=` wah okay my phone just rang again.

see that babyface cousin of mine? he is freaking 186cm tall. and has a pretty wife haha. cant believe they knew each other in ntu's gym. cool ehh :D yeah anyway back to my point. i was issuing a cheque ydae. its was supposed to be $16.05 gasp. i remb the official way was sixteen dollars and CENTS FIVE only instead of five cents only. to think that i was stuck at it for pretty long. Zzzz. lol. anyhow. my orientation is on the 28th. intended to join the student union camp and luckily i didnt. someone joining though. HAHA. since its from 21st to 26 which means i'd be resting for 1 day before setting off. whats more, im joining the hostel camp too. hell lot of fun. yipee! i love camps. can play and make friends (:

things to settle: 1) 18th- ntu registration and talk in sch 2) 19th- MOE sureties TTA at MOE 3) 23rd- orientation thingie? not sure 4) 26th- NTU clear orientation (compulsory, dont want leh, aint feel like joining this) 5) 28th-30th - NIE Camp 6) 29th- 2nd - hostel camp 7) FOC day 8) 29 aug- Raffles check up

pluff. Zzzz. ms wu will u accompany me to daiso soon? (: i miss TK. i miss Teejay. loves loves. and and and... i saw calvin tan! HAHAHA. (my gp tutor, the 1 in orange. he brought me sad news though.sobs.)

im glad about certain things ydae. real glad..

au revoir

2008-07-07T00:50:00.004+08:00

you know how much that mini thing means.
you took it off.
it hurts... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... the most.
au revoir.........

will you find out who you are?

2008-07-05T22:45:00.007+08:00

thank you keith, may i thank you.
for making me aseemingly forgetting the pain
for that couple of minutes.
i enjoyed folding clothes with you.
thanks.
you made my day, i guess.
i hate saturdays.
it is screwed. as ever.

hey love,
you have forsaken me... completely.
hey love,
you have given me up,
oh love,
ive bared my heart and soul and everything to you.
oh love,
something insignificant inside me is making some noise.
and its gradually showing its significance.
oh love,
should i still believe you're patient and kind
like what the bible mentions?
you sure you are?
i get the strangest feeling of you, love.
lift me up and dont hit the ground further, will you?
oh love, its the rock bottom.
indeed love...
i so feel oh crestfallen.
purged with a little bleeding inside, love.
nevermind, it isnt the first time,
i aint gonna cRy.
im such a loseR.

DONT SPEAK. FEEL IT. ITS ME.

2008-07-04T23:09:00.003+08:00

Overdue pics.. found them in my lappy.

the day when i saw fiona at the tea ceremony. LOL. what a coincidence. chilled out with her for a while before heading JB for my keyboard.

CHUBBY. i look so chubby inside. but i was drinking hot chocolate! i like. so i post this upp. haha. idiot. i seem to blog pretty much about satay, durian, roti prata and chocolate. haha. oh ya! did i mention that i was uberly sadddd when i couldnt get my honey chocolates from the candy empire from vivo last week? its like damn sad. cos i wanted to eat it and send it ): i couldnt find after being inside for 20 minutes or so ):

SEE THAT DOGGY? i wanna watch!! anyone free? hello? screw myself a lil bit. i didnt catch sex and the city. its like some sexual scenes and about frenship. wanted to watch de lor. nevermind, a boy girl thing is great as well. must watch k pple! 2nd time im saying it. HAHA.

so yeah. did the usual stuff. open my letterbox as usual but to no avail. have yet to receive anything from ntu and neither from nie. like lol. jenny already received it. jialat. im feelin jittery about it. heard that i gotta head down to moe on the 12th, ntu on the 14th,18th, 23th, 28th-1st aug. like huh? so many days. and cant get my orientation dates cfm. and as a result, i cant join the student union camp which i wanted to becos its gonna crash most likely ): i'll just hope none of the dates falls on the 24th. its my mummy's birthday!

will be working 2mr.
eeeyeer.
):

knock me out. im missing you dear.

I MISS YOU BOY.

2008-07-04T00:49:00.015+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TURTLE WONG!!

Went to celebrate turtle wong's bdae in advance today! yeap. so we were at orchard! hah. see that collage above? its done by leck. i think she's really gr8 at it. turtle wong loves BBT to bits. so yeah. everything above is BBT and TURTLE WONG PEI FEN (:

Bought gift vouchers from SASA, HMV and Cotton On for her. Hah. hope she likes it. and and and and and.. IT'S A BOY GIRL THING is a must watch! im so glad i chose that movie to watch bcos it's really great. its a sexual humour show and it's really touching. laughed all the way and yet the ending was great. a must watch k pple! its only exclusive at cathay. quick quick go watch! oh ya. its NC 16 but they didnt check my ic today! HAHAHA. at last yay!

went for dinner after that was buffet plus kboxxxx. cool. got turtle wong a mini cake halfway through the singing and ordered alot of salmon. haha. aye aye. BUT. i only had 1 SATAY ): sadd. i love satays. no beef. i want chicken one.

random shots in the toilet..

HAHA. so candid right? i swear. i look retarded.

im pouting again. HAHA. dont feel like posing a normal pose. sian sian sian.

HAH. turtle wong. you cant laugh at me already. u old old turtle. u are also 19!! hope you enjoyed yourself today okay! ((: anyway, it's qi en and di hui's bdae today. di ah di. u old di. keep telling me i'll feel 'cui' once i turn 20. hah. nevermind la, you 21 then 21 lar!

anyway, what was I doing the night before? okay. sent in my appeal letter to the ministry and have not received any news as yet. pls pls pls bless me. and wrote in to get back my 4800 plus plus bucks as well. pls respond quickly. and was talkin to jenny until 130am ydae. talked so much. hah. great. im sharing room with her. HAPPY ((: we can clique pretty well. i like.

PLUFF. happening la. tuesday night was like hectic. rushed out to have dim sum buffet in the morning with my ex singtel colleagues. daniel was there too! daniel is a joker la. yeah. we were also supposed to meet at 11am and even the most punctual 'assuming' was late! hah. and we only got there at 12pm instead. still as yummy as ever. my XLB! XLB! XLB! we ordered 20 baskets of XLB that day. woa!

mango pudding!

auntie mok (:

daniel looks so funny.

okay. after that left to teach vanfled. that boy. HEADACHE. his chinese is really...im trying my best to help him. and pls pay more attention to me! met lingting also, she came to teach my sis tut. then waited for my parents to come back from JB and left for midnight kbox with her! must play more. school's gonna start le. then stayed over at her house until evening. went to teach vanfled again.

thats supper.nuggets and fries. got craving for nuggets haha. but lingting got sore throat the next day. oops. get well soon okay :D if not eugene will kill me.

found a new tuition and will be starting 2mr. thanks to ian. its pretty near my house. good good. its a malay learning chinese. oh no. i'll try! (: will be working at expo on sat and sun, 10-10pm again. and have to do packing on sunday. shucks. im gonna get bruises all over me. i hate. but eric was like so poor thing, begging me to work. ydae clement msged me to tell me that wei lun was hospitalised. hais. the more i must help cylon i guess.i dunno why. so i agreed, even though im so scared that the stupid 3 ah lians will return again. YAR. that incident whereby they were creating trouble and i had to call the police for help bcos they threatened me, scolded so much vulgarities and 1 of them started pushing me. the 3 of them were like double my size. so scared that i called him that day. but he was like asking me why i called him. abit sad. i called him of course something major happened right. u baka. you're the person i thought of second to my daddy. hais. so many things to handle. felt tt evything wasnt gg the way its supposed to. the universe seems to compel. broke down tt night ):
dear school, pls start lessons soon.

saw this from hongzhou's blog. discovered that im actually boyishhhh?!
hah. but the part that's saying im just me and i dun try to be what people want me to be is true la. i admit.

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.

Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.

You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.

You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

boy. i swear i miss you to bits. i wonder how you are and how you're doing inside. i miss you.

each day, i cherish whatever that we have left; really cherish.

2008-06-27T23:55:00.009+08:00

Hi pple! im back. hehe. has been a really hectic week for me.
updates ya!
okay. loves. my darling xiao wu came back fr China and so is jenny. and they both came back on 23rd june. hehe. and yesss. great. i love you jenny. u shall be my beloved ntu roommate. heheh. midnight jio u eat roti prata with me. oops. =X im such a gluton. haha. aye. but i miss the satay opposite tjc =( i last had it with him also =(

anyway, yah. okay cut the crap. update update!

Sunday, 22 June'08.

Went to leck's house for a supposedly pretty cool chill out session with the intention of flying a kite high up in the sky and having a picnic out in the open ulu ulu part of punggol. uh huh. the kite cldnt fly bcos there wasnt much wind and the fields were like muddy, puddy cos of the rain earlier in the afternoon. pluff. there goes our picnic. and ms koh qiling was uberly uberly late bcos she came from tuition. so in fact, only leck and i flew the kite. and my kite was stuck on the tree! leck said it's cos i was too short =.='

can see the kite! so colourful!
leck took the photos while im suppose to pose. hahah. i like the further away shot. more emo. keke.

anyway, leck's mummy is as nice as ever (: she treated us zi cha AGAIN at the kopitiam at kadaloor AGAIN. haha. so nice. but was kinda paiseh cos she has treated us for omg. i think it's the 3rd time. hahah.

omg. wondering whats up with these photos? yeah. haha. share a room with turtle wong during the overnight thingie and so leck shared a room with qi. aint know why either. turtle wong and i cldnt get to slp so we chatted till about 6am omg. i swear i almost dropped dead the next day. shall explain why later ya. (qi snapped those pics secretly! LOL)

we talked so many things about life. so many aspects. it makes me scared. it makes me scared of being so truthful and open to others when you never know when pple are putting on their facades be it infront, or behind ya. and whether or not i can still hold on to being me. i mean it's pretty logical to think about things like that, especially now.

but then, it's horrible. i think sth is wrong with my bladder. i went to pee 3 times in 3 hours. LOL! peifen actually went into the toilet with me bcos she was scared of the 'tick tock tick tock' sound of the clock =.=`

Monday, 23 June'08.

okay doky. so tiring... yawns. its 1249am now and im still blogging. okay yeah. so the next day was shopping with them plus xiangting for their online store and yeap. i bought a junkie/vintage top. hoo. so pretty!
anyway, after that was intensive training with qi. haha. we went to run 2.4km and followed by 20 lapses of swimming. cooL. i love love love love love swimming! its like my favourite sport!
went to eat pork porridge after that. yums. porridge is good for health. hahahha. crap.

Tuesday, 24 June'08.

went vivo. the chicken ripper hotdog not bad. bought so much stuff that im like penniless soon. shall post the pics up when i take them ya. hah. i bought 1 cardigan from mango, 1 half knitted jacket from m)phosis, 3 tops, 3 shorts from nichii, 1 pair of slippers from charles and keith and 1 belt. DIE.
end of story.

Wednesday, 25 June'08.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, LINGTING!!! (:

Supposedly to be on the 24th June but she wasnt free! hmm. so did a belated celebration for her. haha. okay brought her over to nydc at wheelock. cos it's like cheesecakes, mudpies and ...it's a puppies inspired restaurant! =)

she ordered this..
yum yum.. it's called 'tears in heaven'
got alot of bacons on it. bacon is nice.
i like.

i had this! it's called 'pigs can fly' haha! cool name huh. it's really yummy. just that it has alot of capsicums (okay dunno how to spell) but i love tomato sauce. it's so richhh and yums..

'Grandma goes nuts' is the most delicious mudpie in nydc i suppose. i dont really like the rest except this 1. hahah. (shall update this part 2mr, so tired alr)

Thursday, 27 june'08.

today's dinner at expo. my working hour's like 10am to 10pm. have to STAND again. and my dinner's like hahahha. from the pic. cool. gd night. im too slpy for more details.

blue rhapsody.

2008-06-22T11:18:00.006+08:00

In this hidden concoction of life lies God's existence.
bless him, may i ask.
away from his dark side of life.
showering him with God's greatest gift of all;
to love..
i know he's not okay
let him receive your love and walk out
from his pain..
let him sense his angel's presence.
let him return to your wings of
love..

just like the way i love ...
the way i want him to be happy..
everyone needs a hug some time in their lives.
me too. you too..

2008-06-21T21:13:00.000+08:00

i cant wait to stay in ntu hostel.
mom, can u gimme a break?

take me away my angel <3

2008-06-21T14:58:00.009+08:00

you didnt want me to worry.
i trust you.
i believe.
(:

but dont do it again can?
be yourself.
loves.
jiayou.

2008-06-20T14:14:00.003+08:00

im so sian and feeling so incredulously bored at home. supposed to meet elaine later cos she's taking over me at parkway roadshow as per big boss mr eric ng. hahaha. omg. im sorry elaine, you gotta clear "tuah" for me on sunday. oops =X (means to dismantle the arrangements, pack the softwares, stock-taking/ lal. tough)

anyway, eric called me ydae morning and i was still feeling sleepy when he asked me to work next fri, sat and sun. oh mama. =( money slaver. sucks =( hais. yeah so calculated my travelling time. im heading out at 3pm maybe and im not going to be very punctual. haha! damn sian

and as im blogging now. my SISTER. yes. she's singing some unknown old chinese singer song in my room and studying in my room instead of the study room =.=` major distraction. ahhh. im blogging nonsense today. hahaa. extreme boredom.

dont feel like going out but have to head out to get my music keyboard cds =( major sian. and i havent set up my keyboard yet becos my table is in such a messy state and pluff. i dont feel like moving. havent gotten ready my letter of appeal to transfer subjects too. i so..dunno what to write. help help help me! okay. he told me to type and send via mail. i think thats more sincere too. but my chances are so slim =( and i havent written in to get my $4800+ yet. must do it before july. about a week more to do so.

okay.

this is a very random entry basically. so yeah. eugene and i bought xiao wu's presents ydae! whee! i got her sth from levis. im major broke now. but nevermind, cos it's very nice! hahah. and eugene's present didnt come easy too. we combed the whole orchard laaaa. slaps slaps. and i dragged ee to centrepoint with me to buy a top from that "W.." something shop. couldnt find the shop! so saddd =(( i need more tshirts and shorts for school. cos 3/4 of my closet is like spag, halter kind. how to wear to school?! =(

cant wait for school to start. i cant wait cant wait. heard from hazel that ntu students always frequent that west coast roti prata shop during wee hours of the night for supper. haha! so cool. bet im going to pull my hostel mates to eat prata with me next time! qi and turtle wong or him also can! provided that he's ready to see me lar. shit lar. i miss him leh =( slap myself. now its not the time. bahhhh =((( how many times must i remind myself he needs more time? *bang wall*

aye aye. but i'll study and play real hard when sch starts. dont be like Teejay lidat. major upset laa. hais. have to head out soon. shall blog again. byebye. shall buy bubble tea for elaine also. byebye.

p.s ntu got sell bubbletea?

i only know got 2 supermarkets. 1 big supermart and 1 mini mart.

i want leh =X

honey milk tea pls ((:

say say say u love me!

2008-06-19T22:54:00.007+08:00

I KNOW U MISS ME!

stupid pig. refuse to admit ):

currently listening to:

Artist: David Cook lyrics

Title: Always Be My Baby

(by Mariah Carey)

Do do doop

Do do doop do doop da dum

Do do doop dum

Do do doop do doop da dum

Do do doop

Do do doop do doop da dum

Do do doop dum

Do do doop do doop da dum

We were as one babe

For a moment in time

And it seemed everlasting

That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free

So I'm letting you fly'

Cause I know in my heart babe

Our love will never die, no

You'll always be a part of me

I'm a part of you indefinitely

Boy don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on and on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

Do do doop

Do do doop do doop da dum

Do do doop dum

Do do doop do doop da dum

I ain't gonna cry no

And I won't beg you to stay

If you're determined to leave boy

I will not stand in your way

But inevitably you'll be back again

'Cause you know in your heart babe

Our love will never end, no

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Boy don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on and on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling,'cause you'll always be my baby

(I know that you'll be back boy)

When your days and your nights get a little bit colder,

oh(I know that)You'll be right back, baby

Well, baby believe me it's only a matter of time, time

You'll always be a part of me

And I'm part of you indefinitely

Boy don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on and on(And we will linger on and on)

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me(Ooh baby)

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

You'll always be apart of me

And I'm part of you indefinitely

Boy don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby(No, no)

(You and I will always be)

And we'll linger on and on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong(You and I)

No way you're never gonna shake me(You and I)

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby(You and I will always be)

do doop

Do do doop do doop da dum

(No way your never gonna shake me)

Do do doop dum

(No way your never gonna shake me)

Do do doop do doop da dum

(You and I will always be)Do do doop

Do do doop do doop da dum

Do do doop dum(No matter what you do baby)

Do do doop do doop da dum

i miss you..i love you..

2008-06-18T20:39:00.001+08:00

i dont want them to perish.
8 lives.
yet, some people are just heartless.

you've never let me know, you've never showed.

2008-06-18T13:37:00.006+08:00

"dont go away, you're the only light i see in this darkness"
credits: thomas for the photo and the pic (:

i am not okayy.

let me ruminate.

ive been telling everyone that im fine. yupp. dont worry about me. but im not. oh my god. im such a lousy liar. i dont seem to be able to concentrate on anything that im doing. im even losing interest in completing a music piece. neither does reading a book helps much. i'll read, and probably lose focus, and end up stoning instead. shopping or exercising doesnt helps either! kill me somebody.

eugene said, "I'll do the normal bit of things i usually do and let life return to normal." gawd. i swear im doing pretty much the same but it doesnt works on me. like LOL. sucks. and sometimes, i do admire darren. yup, frivolous as he may seem to be, he's a warm-hearted, devoted creature, (haha. yeah creature) after knowing that he's still waiting for someone after so longgg. wow. darren, you go boy!

and ive been playing mariah carey's BYEBYE. for like 4206929 times.

This is for my peoples

who just lost somebody

Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady

put your hand way up high

We will never say bye (no, no, no)

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins

This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers

Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times

I didn't get it but you kept me in line

I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes

It's something more than saying "I miss you"

But when we talked too

All them grown folk things

Separation brings

You never let me know it

You never let it show because

You loved me and obviously

There's so much more left to say

If you were with me today

face to face

[Chorus:]

I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on like

"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"

"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"

As time goes by

And soon as you reach a better place

Still I'll give the whole world to see your face

And I'm right here next to you

It feels like you gone too soon

The hardest thing to do is say bye bye(Bye Bye [3x])

Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done

And you never got to see me back at number one

I wish that you were here to celebrate together

I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night

With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight

I thought you were so strong

That you can make it through whatever

It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

pluff.

Have you ever looked at someone through their pictures into their eyes and felt the distance getting longer and longer each time you dropped a glance? To know that the distance in reality can never supersede the one in the heart despite the proximity, and feeling somewhat helpless about it. Have you ever tried plucking up that courage that seemed to entrench itself at the bottom of the heart and when you finally did so, you looked back and saw how things might have been misinterpreted.Sometimes you wish that courage could do more than a mere suggestion. Or that recipient could see the whole picture.

for that, i can only stay, in silent reverie now. silently, but still, listening to what i want. Folks out there, i hope you guys perservere and listen to yourself too. since it is fated that god wants us to go through this as atypical kind of ordeal; survive it and we'll be better than before.

enough said. im moody today.

cylon

2008-06-16T16:30:00.012+08:00

my awful job has finally come to an end.

i wanna thank these people for coming down

and cheering me up at parkway parade.

wed: no1 came ): (yup. ate alone)

thurs: si xuan

friday: eugene

sat: di hui, sebas, darren ( where's lau xin an??!! )

sun: eugene again

haha.

must be thinking why is dis job so pathetic huh.

okay.

im a cylon promoter which is indirectly under best denki.

so basically, a promoter at the best denki roadshow.

last week was at compasspoint.. that totally sucks.

nvm that i was alone for the job, at least qi, turtle and darling xiao wu came

and visit me.

sad part was that i got cut 2x on my arm.

it's like "zeephh" while stocking up pc softwares and bruises on my knees ):

no1 was there to help me. like crap.

so helpless.

things were slightly better at parkway bt still sucky.

cos i cldnt go for any breaks except the dinner break. and its so crappy.

there were no chairs, no nth. my legs are so suan and so muscular now, due to prolonged

hrs of standing. from 12-930pm -.-`

if there was totally no1 visiting me,

it meant that i have to eat alone for the entire week.

=.=`

im so thankful to eugene especially.

he's like uberly uberly uberly sweet to the max.

he came down twice lor.

and ydae was father's day.

i was so sian diao when boss didnt allow me to go back at 630pm when

i was down for my family dinner so it's gonna be so crappy

if i cldnt go out with em to celebrate father's day and wads worse. i eat ALONE.

hah.

people that know me so well.

oh so well.

knew that the top 3 things that i hate the most is:

1) idiots tt lie to me (i swear, unless a valid reason is given, i'll

ignore them forever..so dun ever be a liar infront of me ya. i dont give way)

2) i hate being lonely. eat alone, shop alone, go library alone. (just nice dis job have to

be so damn alone)

3)pple who pang seh me, literally. when evything is fixed. i just dislike it. totally.

ya back to the fact that eugene's so nice.

omg.

i swear i so much wanted someone to come and support me.

he didnt..

its always when im down and out and he wont be

there kinda thing... upsets me. hell lot these days.

but then again, i know he needs time alone.

but the dumb me still went to ask him out.

i deserve it.

im...so..silly. yet, i cldnt help it.

hah. silly me.

nevermind, give him time.

i have confidence in him.

i told eugene. then he came.

and he's so sweet to darling xiao wu.

he waits for her to come online evydae cos she's overseas

over at her dad's op in china.

and he has a week and a half to himself cos he just POP.

he literally waits and waits..he doesnt knows when she'll be around

and he'll just wait.

tts like..gulp. i never had someone being so nice to me before.

even though it's like so silly.

but littlest things, they tell.

they speak alot of a person, isnt it?

the slightest things in life that are often done just tell alot of tt person.

im really happy that they have found each other.

seriously.

LOL. shagged look.
forced a smile on dis pic. my colleagues wanted
to take a photo of me.
=.=`

and they drew me on a balloon.
=.=`

2008-06-14T23:08:00.001+08:00

today is 14th june'08.

2008-06-14T00:01:00.003+08:00

McFly- All About You
It's all about you (it's all about you)
It's all about you baby
It's all about you (it's all about you)
It's all about you

Verse 1:Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smile, it's all about you
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too
Said you'd make my life worthwhile, it's all about you

Chorus:And I would answer all of your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles, it's all about you, yeah!
(Guitar solo)

Chorus 2:And I would answer all of your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes you make my life worthwhile
So I told you with a smile
It's all about you
It's all about you (it's all about you)
It's all about you baby(repeat until end)

2008-06-10T19:04:00.000+08:00

i am so upset today.
like damn upset.

vania!

2008-06-09T20:18:00.003+08:00

i bought this from ms leck and poh xt's LJ.
okay. i like wearing this kinda stuff.
hahah.
pls support folks!
http://mascaradafesta.livejournal.com/

lecky. can u pls pls pls? i want ashley babe.
restock restock :D
whee. im gg out with ms agnes lim 2MR.
cant wait.
(:
i need a new pair of canvas shoes badly.
should i get keds?
my legs are giving way already.
current job: stand from 1200h to 2130h
(hello? i need a portable chair)
bah ):
hard earned money.
will be at best denki rdshow fr wed-sun at parkway.
support me pple?
i know eugene's coming on wed.
join me for dinner since i'll eat alone for this job.
he's gonna feed kyky since lingting is overseas
and just nice he POP.
hahah.
anyone else?
:D

credits to mascaradafesta

omg picnic! omg fly kite!

2008-06-09T00:13:00.002+08:00

OMG. im so excited. i am gg to have a picnic and fly kite plus stayover session
on 21-22 june at punggol! omg. omg. omg. its either we are getting kites or making em.
hahahah.
but im sure we will be preparing food.
omg so cool!
hope i dun mess up the whole kitchen.
we're gg to play fire sparklers and take lame pics too!
gonna blog them up so stay tuned!
hahaha!
today is a bad day.
cos my granny is at ttsh.
im visiting her 2mr.
yet, omg. meanwhile, im so excited! whee!!
dont look for me during these days! im not around! yay!
:D

sighs.

2008-06-08T13:02:00.005+08:00

It was proven scientifically that a smile can gain you 10 more years of life. Is it true? I aint sure. Just got myself hitched up with a new job, as a sales promoter. I should be happy isnt it? Unfortunately, not quite. I always tell myself that i can stay happy as long as I'm being myself. I dont want to be like the rest. People just stick to those whom they think are popular, as what the society conforms. And they change accordingly just to fit into their world- the popular ones.

I'm not like them, and more often than never, people tell you this, tell you that just to force you to become like them. Im so tired of it. Why cant life be simpler? Or is it because I havent really met friends that have the same mindset as I do? Many are just hi-bye kind of friends, but friends that really go through thick and thin with you are RARE. as you mingle with the rest, you just know it, "No, I dont belong here." i feel fake forcing a smile, doing things like camwhoring blabla..with them. it just isnt me. im really simple. okay maybe you can say that im boring, but i dont care.

To me, spending quality time, can just be having a cup of coffee, (doesnt have to be at starbucks or coffeebean, kopitiam also can), talking about things be it big or small; just like a heart-to-heart talk, going marina bay to fly kite and watch it fly higher and higher, or just having my beau sitting beside me, we dont have to communicate, i'll just be glad and contented that he is by my side..thats enough. and we enjoy each other's presence. we dont have to follow the trend and do what others are doing, its just between us two. And yet, simple things like this dont come easy. Trust me, Im really simple. I dont need gorgeous clothes, when i go out with pple that im comfortable with, i can just go out with my mugger clothes and fbt.

I do doubt myself, trying to emphasize on individuality and yet, many a times, I've been carrying so much about what others say. Just what the hell is wrong with me? I want to be myself yet i cant be true to myself. Forcing myself to blend in, yet, I just dont belong. so sick of it..

im looking forward to uni life, boy, i need a change. i need to settle down. i dont like it when i feel so aimless and helpless.
talking about my relationship, i know you guys are concerned about me. but no worries folks, i have made my decision. i just hope that you guys can respect me and say no more. i am who i am. i know how i feel. i dont need outsiders to comment, it is not going to count. what i need is faith on both parties, trust and fate. baby, i know we can do it even though its not now. wow, this is such a long entry which is supposedly to be up, eons ago.
man, feel like visiting daiso, the amazing supermart, its a happy place! i cant wait to go there with someone though. its really homely (: you've got to be there to experience it!

i love you people!!

and.. i love you.

2008-06-06T01:38:00.001+08:00

decided not to lock it afterall.
things will turn out well.
they will.
have faith.
yes yes yes!
ahhhh.
we know.

2008-06-02T22:08:00.002+08:00

my twin!

2008-05-31T22:45:00.000+08:00

i have to say..
she looks like me.
even my mum thinks likewise.
hah.

2008-05-28T13:29:00.008+08:00

dear god,

im a simple girl.

yearning for a simple life.

pls grant me my bdae wish.

2008-05-26T13:36:00.000+08:00

thank you thomas.

i miss this.

2008-05-26T00:49:00.003+08:00

its 1249am.
i am hungryyy.
i miss eating this.
even if i put on 2kg now i will still eat.
it's the most delicious food i ever had.
even nicer than my roti prata, satay or durian.
or even the Yong He at geylang which i simply love.
not even starbucks' white choc mocha.
or even coffee beans' tomato herb linguine or white choc dream.
(which often makes me happy after eating. see the pic below! hahahah.
okay apparently, i made a mess out of it)

oh well..

enough said. a pic paints a thousand words. i miss ---

2008-05-23T21:52:00.002+08:00

pourquoi mensonge?

2008-05-22T22:57:00.001+08:00

deeply saddened.
with no reins left.

Back to school!

2008-05-20T22:55:00.002+08:00

Back to school!

Ms qiling drew the 'si bu xiang' but i cld uds turtle wong's drawing.

hais.

i really need to improve.

i do suck.

i know.

2008-05-19T19:16:00.000+08:00

yes i know.

stop hounding me pple.

i will blog soon okay!

got hounded like crazy on YL Tan's bdae.

i will blog soon.

Scrapside's alive! (:

2008-04-18T12:23:00.001+08:00

TK BAND SYF 2008

har!
it has been real long since i've last blogged.
har. partly cause i have a shared blog.
hahhaha.
oh well!
shall talk about tk band comp that took place last sat!

Getting ready....

can see them marching out already...

different formations...hahah.

quite pretty!

and they actually had lotsa gimmicks!

hais~

unfortunately, i feel tt out standard has dropped.

it didnt seemed to me that we were doing as well as the past.

kinda felt that there was a lack of the tk band spirit somehow.

anyway,

we got gold with honours but lost the best display band award to deyi.

which used to be...hmm...not v comparable? sians.

they've come a long way.

time to wake up tk band and show ur might!

i miss TK!!!

oh well.

1st time seeing TAN YI LIANG botak is rather cool.

his head is too small for his body.

hahahha.

YES!

that is TAN YI LIANG.

my buddy.

i went to watch TK band's syf with elaine and him.

har.

ok.

seems like the 3 of us plus ah mok gotta catch up

real soon!!!

2008-03-16T15:05:00.000+08:00

i'm so bored..bored..bored..
stiff bored.
havent quite recovered.
it's the 4th day i'm having diarrhoea.
damn sian at home.
shd i sell my phone?

anyway,
plans of gg HK are kinda screwed.
cos of the avian flu which might also
have the possibilities of spreading across taiwan.

ahhh yes.
yiliang msged me ydae
saying that he was pretty worried over waiyin and i.
oh well.
wads done cannot be undone.
probably just have to admit that i wasted 18 yrs of my life?
but hey!
snap back to reality.
it doesnt sounds so bad afterall.
take a deep breath,
take a step back.
the world's still so beautiful and filled
with constant surprises!
just have to tell myself that it's not the end! =D
hahhhh.
hyped.
BUT
i still do..think abt it..
esp when tan kee hoe. oh my beloved chem tcher back
in sec 4 once wrote and commented that..
"jiahui, no matter where you go and what you do,
think hard, and go all the way out.
and i know that you will strive and do very well.."
...
and i hate to admit it that
it makes me sad when frens are neglecting
how you're feeling probably bcos
they are too excited with their good grades.
oh well,
i'm not blaming them.
kinda natural sense of reaction!
aiya dunno lar!
i miss elaine and yiliang leh.
waiyin and lingting still okay.
i keep seeing them!
hahahah. but lingting gg overseas soon ):
BAHHHHHH BAHH.
bored leh.
):

2008-03-05T15:12:00.000+08:00

red alert!
terrorist still uncaught!

HAHA xD
tink the photo quite funny.

well oh well,
i'm bored again at work.
how?
anyway,
going shopping with turtle later.
that woman.
no xiao long bao cannot 1.
wants me to eat xiao long bao with her at asian kitchen.
hahahah.
apparently,
there was dis once when we bluffed her tt asian kitchen at marina sells
xiao long bao. (there isnt la, obvious)
haha. and when we caught L last week,
we went to dis shop called bao jin tian.
but the xiao long bao was sold out too.
hahahah.
there she goes, adamant to have it at all costs today.
hahahah!
i shall oblige xD
anyway, i'm hoping to get a really nice lookin wallet!
hehe!
dear says my wallet lyk gg to explode lor ):

anyway,
tink the wu ke qun's wei ni xie shi really not bad.
haha!
have been feeding lingting's dog for the past 2 days.

shall post up some pics back hme k!
hmm.
so dear and i went to her hse to take care of kiki.
then dear fell aslp. he looks damn cute.
hahaha. ok. side trackin alil`.
hahaha.
yar the main point was that kiki refused to move around
when we brought her dwnstairs. emo-ing and idling her time away
cos ling ting wasnt hme and i suppose lyk most dogs do, kiki misses
her master xD
so it was pretty cumbersome and he had to carry her up instead.
hahah. the best part was tt, both of us didnt quite know how to
buckle up the leash.
dumb rite =.=
BUT when i did it ydae, it was fine..just lyk the other time when i brought
her down too.

i miss lingting!
she wont be able to make it to sch with me on fri le ):
shivers*
count dwn. 2 days.

Zouk!

2008-03-04T14:58:00.000+08:00

He brought me to zouk last wed
with his colleagues and army frens.
wasnt quite comfortable in the beginning cos
the queue was really long and i got a mosquito
bite on my leg! =X

anyway,
guoyong is working at zouk.
quite cool.
but didnt get to see him though..

His colleagues are quite funny too!
justina is cute and i tink aslin is quite pretty~
hehe xD
cant upload the photos here..
shall do it when i'm hme i guess (:
and dear seemed to enjoy himself very much.
from the way he danced lyk damn funny.
ahahah!
he's working half day today.
that explains my extreme boredom huh.
alright.
i'll blog tonight.
i hope.

anyone shoes spree?

couple to be? xD

oh and yes.
omg. cant believe i saw martin =X

p.s. hope kiki isnt too hungry.

2008-03-04T14:30:00.000+08:00

i'm back to blog!
have been getting lazier lately.
i'm in the office right now..
slacking away.

the girls were talking abt a's minutes
ago as rohana othman, our atl was begging us to
report for work on sat as our department is extremely short-
handed.
seriously, i dun feel lyk turning up on sat,
so i kept quiet.
it's lyk.."what if you dont get what you want?"
do you still have the mood to work?
oh well..aint wanna be irresponsible to promise anything.
my intuition tells me that i aint gonna perform well ):
how much i envy him~
it's already over for him and i aint wanna show him
i'm really uptight and nervous abt a's.
i'm terribly scared
pls someone help me!
):

2008-02-22T15:48:00.000+08:00

Havent been into blogging for a long long time~
Setted up this blog as i didnt want many to be
reading..
hmm.
pretty much contented with my life right now~
except having to work in a place i dislike.
Nevertheless, there are many great people
in the office though..
these are people that actually add spice to my life.
contented with having a bunch of really great buddies..
gals and guys out there..
hmm..not naming them specifically though..
got a really great him around..
and yeah.
not too sure though,
we just dont really spent a lot of time
together as what most couples do ):
a whee bit of upset and disappointment.
aye.
gonna end here`
dots.